I was beyond sick today; But I stayed at work like a trooper and got that shit done. Tomorrow i'm in scheduling again. Which is fine. The best part about being there is the quiet. No patients in my face. Hmm. other than work; ah, tomorrow is PAY DAY! allriiight. lol. first thing on my list is grocery shopping. Gonna start being healthier. I have to. My stomach has been so horrible since pops died, I know its my anxiety. But it costs a mint fortune to go :/ 120 next visit. Shit just gets tiring. I feel like it's sooo expensive for me to be happy. ..
This weekend I was going to go see my Nana, but honestly I really just dont feel like it. And i know that sounds horrible but idk. I just am mentally drained. I feel like everything is a tugofwar again. it's annoying. Sometimes I wish I had someone just to be there and just hold me...even if they didn't understand. ..but then when I get close I can't stand it.
i'm truly an enigma!
hahaha.
xoxox,
Deezy.
btw...i am an hour away from this ^. hate on it.
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