This weekend....

I bought a cat. His name is Moose. He's three months old and is living with a friend of mine till i can move out ..mom is allergic :( i love his crazy butt. hahaha. <3 deff my soul kitty.

Went house hunting.

and that's pretty much it.:)

Loves.

Sometimes I wish I could just be done here. I know that sounds insanely morbid and depressed, but hey, I'm a depressed psychotic bitch. What can I say? Lately things haven't been exactly going my way. My car, as always, is a giant piece of shit. Shocker. I haven't had any luck with trading it in and the whole throttle body being bad, random acceleration thing sucks. 

 

Yet another douche bag floated my way. For some reason I thought deep down he would be a good guy. Stupid me, thinking I could find someone in this backwards town. I officially no longer even look..which is sad. I'm 22 and just so done with trying to find someone. It is what it is. Things could always be worse, I could be knocked up by some loser in jail and addicted to meth...or some shit like that. 

I got on my works insurance and that has been a bitch too. It just seems like nothing I touch goes right. I feel like i'm constantly fighting waves and it's exhausting. 

I miss my Pops like crazy and worry about my dad. I worry that i'll lose him too, that i'll wake up one day and be without anyone I love. Everyone seems so preoccupied to even notice how much I need them, just to be there, to ask if i'm okay. Nobody sees it. I work really hard to make sure i'm always there for the people in my life..oh well. 

Spent New Years on a fouton in the back yard around a fire pit, with my friend and her boyfriend. It was pretty fun. I was heavily intoxicated and depressed as hell. I'm so tired of being the loser friend that has no life. But this too shall past, they'll move on..without me. 

It is what it is, 

Enough with this shit. 

Suck it up and move the fuck on. 

Wanda.