This weekend....

I bought a cat. His name is Moose. He's three months old and is living with a friend of mine till i can move out ..mom is allergic :( i love his crazy butt. hahaha. <3 deff my soul kitty.

Went house hunting.

and that's pretty much it.:)

Loves.

Sometimes I wish I could just be done here. I know that sounds insanely morbid and depressed, but hey, I'm a depressed psychotic bitch. What can I say? Lately things haven't been exactly going my way. My car, as always, is a giant piece of shit. Shocker. I haven't had any luck with trading it in and the whole throttle body being bad, random acceleration thing sucks. 

 

Yet another douche bag floated my way. For some reason I thought deep down he would be a good guy. Stupid me, thinking I could find someone in this backwards town. I officially no longer even look..which is sad. I'm 22 and just so done with trying to find someone. It is what it is. Things could always be worse, I could be knocked up by some loser in jail and addicted to meth...or some shit like that. 

I got on my works insurance and that has been a bitch too. It just seems like nothing I touch goes right. I feel like i'm constantly fighting waves and it's exhausting. 

I miss my Pops like crazy and worry about my dad. I worry that i'll lose him too, that i'll wake up one day and be without anyone I love. Everyone seems so preoccupied to even notice how much I need them, just to be there, to ask if i'm okay. Nobody sees it. I work really hard to make sure i'm always there for the people in my life..oh well. 

Spent New Years on a fouton in the back yard around a fire pit, with my friend and her boyfriend. It was pretty fun. I was heavily intoxicated and depressed as hell. I'm so tired of being the loser friend that has no life. But this too shall past, they'll move on..without me. 

It is what it is, 

Enough with this shit. 

Suck it up and move the fuck on. 

Wanda.

catch up.

So busy all the time lately. And exhausted. Right now i'm extremely sick with allergies [i think]. I've been consuming vitamin C like a mad woman, hoping that it will keep whatever this junk is at bay. Work is work. Busy and at times a headache. I test drove a car this past weekend and completely fell in love. It WILL be mine. lol. My car is sorta fixed. Hopefully it lasts.

School is killing me. So much to do on top of working full time. But i'm grateful for both, extremely thankful how I have been gifted.

Anyway i'm gonna go crawl into bed. Much love.

Sleepless.

I'm guessing it's because of the new moon-or just my cracked out brain, but i can't sleep. and it sucks. lol.

I did just put a new scent in my scentsy ; it's apple something. not fall-hate that crap but it's yummy smelling, like fresh apples :)

Oh i've moved on to Physician's Formula make up. And loove it. :) So light but gives good coverage.

New betsy johnson bag, new aviators, make up on the way.lots of stuff to review on here. i've been neglecting.

school is hard, forty hrs a week work and then school. ughhh.

anyway that's it for tonight.

Love.

to be continued...

In the next few days  i'll be posting a forever 21 haul. I got a dress and two tops. I'll include prices and review. ALSO I have some major updating to do, as well as trying out some recipes so stay tuned!!

 

Love this! :) For your enjoyment!

OH AND CONGRATS TO MY TWINNY FOR BEING A LICENSED INSURANCE BROKER!! You go diva, i couldn't be prouder!!

 

fuuu.

My car is officially the hated bastard of my week. Replaced starter now we're onto an entirely different problem. I can't wait to go car shopping. In eight weeks my debt will be dwindled enough for me to go play hardball with some A-hole of a car salesman.
Not positive what i'm getting but hey that's half the fun , teheee

Anyway. Not too much else.

xoxox.

Step One: Get organized.

I'm starting a change my life by the new year challenge.
Instead of making a crappy new years resolution that I never end up keeping i'm starting now, right this moment and by the new year will have a shaped life that i am proud of.

Today I ...

Decluttered my life and got organized! You might think that sounds odd but it's proven that when everything has a home your mind is more at rest. Plus organization is another form of responsibility. I'm tired of living such a chaotic life...I need to build my own structure.

Tomorrow I will be going grocery shopping or monday, depending when my car is back on the road...to stock up on fruits and veggies. :) gotta start being healthy and treating my body right. Ya know? I've already made my list and have it built in my mind what i wanna do with it, just gotta get there.

I'm also gonna start trying to exercise three days a week and then move up slowly after that. I will probably never work out on tuesdays because of class, and by 8:15 i'm just too exhausted. But that can be my mid week vacay. haha.
I'm also going to keep blogging on here as well as keeping my own private journal as I start being very strict on my meds, hopefully this will show my progress. I really think these meds will work. I pray that they do.

Anyway,

That's all I have for now. ta ta for now my loves.

xoxox.

I didn't take this picture or anything but i've had it on my computer since I found it. I love it. It's absolutely true!